nothing

im going crazy.

2010-05-19T19:36:00.002+08:00

LITERALLY. I WANNA CRY MY EYES OUT NOW.
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH D:
WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?! ALL THIS NEVER HAPPENED IN SECONDARY SCHOOL.
I WAS NEVER THIS STRESSED OUT, AND I NEVER CRIED, NEVER, ABOUT HOMEWORK ETC.
SIGH. IB KILLS ME.
SCREWED.

lalala~

2009-06-10T20:37:00.002+08:00

today is th last day of bridging. yay!
haha
aft sch farzie n niki came my hse...supposedly to study..
but obviously nth much was done. haha
farzie was readin teenage n niki was chatting on msn.
i was trying to do tuition hmwk
niki super irritant nia, keep asking me my hse got this got that anot.
hahaha.
anw, aft farzie left, niki was chatting with javen on msn
den we like playin with him la.
cos niki said bye to him alr den i logged into my msn n started a conv. with him again.
lalala
den i logged out n niki logged in again
i think we seriously irrtated him la.
haha!
(:
oh! i asked yiling if she got quarantined aft coming back frm church camp.
haha..but she nv...
den she say she puttin me in music team for family service. again.
eurgghh.
why me? ask jezreel mah. or tammy. or my sis.
hee~
ok i gotta go finish tuition work n giv my sis th notebk.
k byes~

mood swings?

2009-05-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

like yea i think i got mood swings la...
today was th last day pf sch..well kind of..
so we had big breakfast in th morning den cont. lessons =.=
but big breakfast was seriously fun.
esp th dog and bone!!!
haha
we supposed to play chop chili chop but aft like 2 or 3 ppl den cnt continue liao.
wth nia, so ended up playin dog n bone.
aft MT was supposed to be maths and i even brought txbk nia, den they say giving out report book instead...
haix.
and ms lin was tellin us tt she wld call pur parents if we failed sth...
i was like super freaked out la...
den she showed us her bro's report bk,
it was some sort of motivation for us i guess...
and i was kinda motivated...
must make use of jun hols ah!
haix
when i got my report bk like i wanted to cry alr lor.
den tt TYS still come n tell me he got 5th in class..
like wth
arghhh!
my MYE results suck. bigtime.
i most probably wont even get into poly with these grades.
and i actually felt terrible. i was on th verge of crying alr.
and i nearly did.
den when farzie niki n i walked out of class we were discussing our marks.
and i really did cry. well got tears la but nv really come down.
hmmm...and nw as im typing this i think im gonna cry too.
really, nw is not a good time to be having PMS.
bah humbug!
i was really scared to go home aft sch so i went out to eat with niki den we wnt toys r' us
th pooh bear n piglet soooooo cute!
haha
as im typing this im crying.
i also dono why. ive been crying to sleep lately
i dont even know why.
im emo? stressed? crazy? afraid...
yeah, i think im afraid.
very very very scared.
im scared tt my o lvls will turn out like PSLE.

i cnt type anymore.
im like losing control of myself.
goodnight.

Good Friday

2009-04-10T22:18:00.002+08:00

today is GOOD FRIDAY
today is a PUBLIC HOLIDAY
today's service was at EXPO
today i got a NEW MP3
today i had BK for lunch
TODAY IS THE DAY JESUS DIED TO FORGIVE OUR SINS.

yup.
i've been feeling guilty lately.
even more after reading kimie's blog.
her love for God is so deeeeepp
until i question myself whether i've EVER loved Him so much before.
i don't think so.
maybe being born into a christian family has its faults too?
i have never been able to really APPRECIATE God for all he's done
instead i've been trying to be a good christian
trying to do th right things but not knowing why
never really thought about th things he did for us.
only what i want Him to do for ME.
hmmmms
time to repent i guess.
:O

no title.

2009-04-09T16:24:00.003+08:00

OMG im like BORED......
seeding is like seroiusly boring la..
write essay, den after that write another essay den another and another.
walau eh boring sia.
and lyk nth much to write abt also lor
oohhhh i just rmb...
kimie wants me to write sth nice about her cos she wrote nice things abt me in her blog.
so im gonna say....
KIMIE IS THE NICEST AND MOST HELPFUL PERSON ON EARTH.
AND SHE SINGS NICE TOO
:)
okay ah. dont angry tt i nv write abt u hor...
hehes
BTW.
8 MORE DAYS TO SYF.
JIAYOUS!

this week was....

2009-03-06T20:22:00.002+08:00

sucky perhaps..
i dunno la.
anw this week was like quite lax cos no TAs.
all postponed to next week i have no idea why.
still say we can concentrate on each subject properly...
HOW can we do that if u push all TAs into the same week!?
=.=
nothing really interesting happened this week i guess..
kinda boring.
except for choir which i'll talk abt in my next post cos i think its gonna be LONG.
hahahahs...
lately been very sleepy.
i need caffine!!!!
my sis says i cant drink caffine.
but FYI: CAFFINE IS IN COKE. AND EVERYONE DRINKS COKE.
ok moving on...
ohhhhhh..i rmb le.
niki tan has unoffcially become our class' sweet provider.
and ms tay also. ahahaha!
tsk tsk...4e4 so Evillll!
tsk tsk...
ok lame, bye bye.

weekend

2009-03-01T18:07:00.002+08:00

hello :D
i know la...aft camp wk like nv blog alot..
but seriously nth much to sayy
except tt someone nv bring her skirt to school on wed when we having PE
being th kind soul that i am, i shal not disclose any names
she damn funny la..
cos wed was PE den she wore full PE attire to school and so conviently forgot to bring her skirt to change..
=.=
seriously, u very pro...
hahahahs
anw, this whole weekend im like caught up doing homework.
but i've finished most of it le.
haha
ive done half of a-maths and most of english except summary
and ive done chemistry, physics...
CRAP. i just rmbered got SS to do.
:(
ohhhh...
and tmr got sectional aft sch..
walau...this stupid school damn last minute lor...
only last week den tell us we're supposed to perform our SYF piece in front of the whole school.
like wth.
where got time to prepare?!
and we like rushing for time to prepare 4 SYF alone.
still want us go perform..
and drama and chinese dance are excused.
wth
drama understandable i guess cos got no props ma..
chinese dance leh???
oh..cos their performance takes up 3/4 the hall?!!?
wth..where got performance so big de?!
diao
damn la. so shua da pai one...
just because last SYF got gold w/ honours can be so cocky isit?!!?
walau..
okay.
carrying on blogging like this i'll get angry.
lols
nvm...

sucks.

2009-02-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

hello :)
i have got a list of ppl to hack le!
ahahahah
i decided to hack ppl who offend me
so....
1. jing lin. cos she grow too tall and is an offence to all th not so tall ppl in my class.(sry yuxin dont scold me ;))
2.erm...havent decided yet.
ok hahaha im being LAME.
and i cant post properly cos my sis is sitting next to me.
and she's being a pain.
and she's growing taller than me.
and she's gloating over it.
humph. dont like you.
ohhhhh.
jus nw i read th newspaper den it said S.H.E MIGHT BE DISBANDED.
walau den like so sadddddddd la...
but i just went on forum
but S.H.E DEFINETLY WILL NOT disband.
YAY.
okkkkkkkkk
frm now on im just gonna crap.
lol.
ohhhhh yeahhhhhhhh
must add fadhly on MSN.
hehe

2009-02-20T17:01:00.002+08:00

today beach cleaning.
ewwww
haha actually not so bad la. quite fun.
we were bullying sin ni. she was not supposed to say more than 3 vugalirites today or else she gotta pay 5 of us $5 each
haha
lately i've been bullying alot of ppl.
i think cos i nv bully yi ling so like need somewhr to release th bullying hormone.
lol.
=.=
yesterday at TP(aft my last post)
we went to a course abt cyber security or sth den they taught us how to hack computers
den we had a competition on who was the NO.1 hacker.
guess who won???(infer frm tagboard)
ahahahaha!
OK, ltr i gg to watch yoga's concert!
YAY! GOT S.H.E LEH!!!!
hahahah
i think i gotta go out soon...hmmmmm
ok. bye.
love,
YOUR ONE AND ONLY
HACKER.
AHAHAHAHAHA!
ok im being retard again.
see la niki tan, influence me....

CAMP WEEK!

2009-02-19T13:43:00.002+08:00

ahahahah!!!
im in TP now!!!
hehehe, we at IIT sch den they let us play com so might as well rite?
lol
this week is camp week but sec 4s nv go camp...:(
instead, we got motivational course.
how interestiiiiiiiinnngggggg.....
wth.
today is a tour of TP and the corses available and tmr we're going beach cleaning!
soooooooooo excitingggggggg!
=.=
ok enough of sarcasm.
walau just nw my whole class kena scolded my tt stupid idiot victoria lor.
lame la she , whole life mood swing den take it out on th students wan...
IDIOT.
she say wad " anw, im th one with th good o lcvl cert..."
crazy one lor.
and now those two crazyyyy ppl next to me(niki and farzie) are like tagging each other...
niki today sot sot one...
and they are like " ooooooh...pet society pet society!!!!!!"
=.=
i've got crazy friends.
hahaha

school has started

2009-01-16T19:13:00.002+08:00

no, technically school started 2 wks ago. but who's counting rite?
lol
i dont like my timtable.
i miss friday recesses at 1015.
wth.
and they changed some teachers.
lol. mr vanan not teaching us le, but mdm saleha is quite good.
and THAT TSW IS STILL MY MATHS TEACHER.
how sad is that.
haix.
then today at choir things kinda got out of hand.
mrs erp asked us to have sectionals den like no one wanna listen liddat lor.
walau eh.
next time must try to have alto and S2 seperate sectionals.
when mrs erp left like we were supposed to have another round of sectionals to brush up th
set piece.
but some ppl just refuse to cooperate.
concentrate little while den sing properly can go home alr ma!
den still blame us 4 having sectionals 4 too long.
wth.
and we need extra sectionals. whether you like it or not.
at the most dont participate in SYF la, u're not indispensable.
oooohhhhhh
and tmr im going SHOPPING!
new yr coming le and i gt nth to wear.
saded.
lols

homework

2008-12-19T13:34:00.002+08:00

i need to get on with my homework.
aw crap.
i havent even started yet...
6 days to christmas;
13 days to 2009;
14 days to sec 4;
13 days to complete all the hmwk.
CRAP.

BORED

2008-12-17T17:51:00.002+08:00

hahaha i havent blogged for 5 mths and 17 days. lol
anw, im bored.
whole day at home slacking now tt got no more choir practices.
and no more tuition also so im basically at home th whole day.
sianx..
n no one to go out wif...
i need to go shopping!
haha
th only thing i can think of doing now wud be homework but i seriously dont wanna think abt doing it.
tt big stack waiting in my room jus freaks me out la.
wth.

2 do: Chem/Phy TYS; emaths exam pps; geog; amaths Iconn
done: NONE.

kay, im like th most pro on earth.
havent even touch hmwk yet.
hahaha

nothing better to do.

2008-07-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

i decided to post today cos i got nothing to do
hehe
lately getting more stressed lor.
today goeg TA im praying tt i get full marks for th essay
cos i only managed to finish the essay.
hai..
friday got SS TA and rehearsals again.
tmr i going ACAPELLA FEST!
finally can see mr ong again!!!!
YAY!
hahaha
becoming kinda crazy now. heh

i was doing a-maths just now but lazy complete...
oh crap.
got chem hmwk!
arghh.
sian
obviously, havent done yet.
=.="

just now in sku ah ma yiling smsed me to ask how my tests were.
den still say i nv listen in class cos too busy smsing.
its cos she msg me den i rlp one lor.
still come blame me..
what to do, 老人就是这样
hehehe
okay la, i know she's just concerned
heh
sometimes i feel sry for yiling leh.
always kena bully by yaya sisters.
i wonder what will happen next year
when me, tammy, jess and han mae go th older BS
th room will be like super quiet lor...
with th exception of kelly of course..
hehe

anw, my mum chasing me to sleep now.
better go, ltr she dont let me go out tmr...
nites!

GOD ANSWERS PRAYER

2008-07-15T20:35:00.003+08:00

He really does.
there's a story behind it but...
its kinda lame la.
so...
not telling...
by th way.
tomorrow is 16 july.
im turning sweet 15
REMEMBER. or else.
*evil laughter*
lols
im being lame...

sian

2008-07-09T18:54:00.002+08:00

school sucks.
cos i've been lazing ard doing nth
heh
and i think its gonna get worse.
cos tt stupid mdm teng coming back on friday.
like wth la.
and i think vanan coming back next week.
so cant slack in class le.
haix
and i still got tt 300 word essay on loyalty to th nation which obviously i havent started.
i dunno how to start.
and its due like tommorow.
sian la
and youtube is lagging like siao so i cant entertian myself...
i just realised tt im starting to like 棒棒堂 more and more
dunno why, aft watching 黑糖瑪奇朵
i almost everyday watching BBT
but its okay cos i still love S.H.E th most.
hahaha

BORED

2008-07-05T12:49:00.002+08:00

im very bored.
seriously, this has got to be the worst youth day holiday i've ever had.
but i've got ALOT of y. day presents.
like:
~an english essay abt 'Loyalty to th Nation' [great rite??]
~chemistry worksheets [im so excited]
~maths worksheets [loving it]
~physics test coming up [cant wait]
=.=
im like gg crazy already la.
and gotta giv my oarents presents too rite.?
so:
~one BADLY failed SS test [cant wait to giv them]
~one failed maths test [they will be so happy]
=.=
im seriously becoming crazy.
got nth serious to blog abt.
and i just realised tt th laptop dun have S.H.E songs
so got nth to calm me down.
wth
i shud spam yi ling.
tt clams me down.
hehehe
or watch youtube.
i wanna go out!!!!
walau eh. blogging is making me worse inside.
wth
forget it i'll stop blogging
untill i feel better.
i think i'll go spam yi ling...

headache

2008-07-01T20:08:00.002+08:00

i think im gonna get a headache soon...
from th soon to be overloaded homework
and th problems with th sec 1 altos.
but mostly th sec 1 altos...
i dunno why la, some of them dont sing
some are too soft to be heard and some just cant be bothered.
i dunno why liddat la.
now altos are th weakest section in th whole choir.
we need plenty of sectionals to catch up.
they dont concentrate during practice.
always talking and talking.
very irritating laa.
haix
i still got SS to do.
which obviously i have no idea how to do.
thank GOD i've done a-math le.
otherwise tonight must burn midnite oil
im very tired.
im in serious need of sleep...
i still dunno if i can go for th gathering.
they all gg to k session...
i badly wanna go.
meet up with them...
kay...
must go try and finish SS...
essay leh
but at least not 333 words
hahaha

-------

2008-06-29T18:39:00.002+08:00

today is sunday, so tommorow is monday
which also means that tommorow got school
sian la...
good thing is tt i got no homework
but i havent read literary non fiction yet..
lazy read laa
today was th final day of SOM, damn happy la, no nid go church at 815 anymore
and we found out tt jez has become bai ka.
she fell down th stairs and broke her foot.
so she was like hopping all over th place la.
very funny. actually shud say comical.
that's abt all things interesting that happened lor.
th rest of th day was like sian.
and just now was doing alice's blog.
havent finsh yet but gg to la.
must link her and yi jing.
oh and jez and clare.
all nv link...
hehehe

totally random

2008-06-29T18:30:00.002+08:00

disclaimer:
*because of the increasing number of 'dead blog' tags, i have decided to revive my blog.*

saturday

2008-03-29T14:01:00.002+08:00

its saturday!
i just finshed my homework...haha
im so guai...
really...even a-maths finish le.
i got nothing to do so update blog lor.
dis morning some idiots were crapping on S.H.E forums
thank goodness ella scolded them...
but i think dey still arguing laa.
very bo liao lehh, small small thing also wanna fight.
wth la
and i cant get on youtube.
dunno wat happen to the server. all the videos cant load de.
and i wanna watch the 'hong pian quan qiu' MV!
humph...
of all the things to happen on saturday.
why cannot other servers lag?
like iconnexion or sth? den no nid do work...
hahaha
now very sian...
nth to do...
im gonna watch TV.
or practice 'kiss goodbye' on the piano
aiya, go and sleep laaa...
hahaha

i need sleep.

2008-03-25T19:09:00.002+08:00

i am very tired. i dunno why.
i wanna sleep. but i still haven't touched my homework.
and its piling up. higher and higher as the days go by.
dis morning had PE.
we did shuttle run and sit ups.
my timing sucked la...
shuttle run i gt 12.41 sec which is i think just pass.
i nid to practice sit ups cos i did 10 and was already tired.
farzana pro la...
at one go did fifty.
last time i could do 30 or 40 at one shot. now cant
walau, i becoming old like yi ling already la...
HAHAHA!
den choir was very sian.
my instuructor nv come, YAY!
but den the 'lao jiaos' came. en li and derrick.
my seniors stepping down dis wk leh...
saded....
but den got no more sam to bully me!
hahaha
anw, quite sad to see dem go la...
cos they been with my batch since like we were sec 1.
now they stepping down so i might miss them.
hai...
im going to find food to eat...
suddenly very hungry...
lol...
bye!

monday blues.

2008-03-24T16:37:00.002+08:00

school sucked today.
well, it sucks everyday but today is suckier.
first period was maths.
i dont even know wat the heck she talking about la.
she explains and no one understands.
no one actually bothers anyway so wad's the point?
than was english. the only 'interesting' lesson of the day.
cos dylan had to do jumping jacks in front of the whole class.
so we learnt that jumping jacks are for guys.
jumping JANES are for girls.
another one of mr vanan's lame jokes but it kept me awake.
than we had physics.
mr kim was complaining that 3e3 is too slow and so the cant set proper qns for of MYE.
well, too bad for u la, but im okay with it.
no nid study so much.
haha.
aft recess was geog.
its boring as usual.
i dont understand why he keeps going to the SEAB page to check the syllabus.
what's there to check anw?
oso dun have the o lvl qns.
stupid nia...
than was a-maths.
i might have been looking forward to it, but mrs tan nv come.
and the relief teacher sucks.
he just keeps writing the solution to the problem adn doesn't explain.
even if he does, we cant hear him.
not cos we're noisy.
when our class was quiet, i could harly hear him.
i dont even know wat he's writing on the board la..
i dont understand wat he is doing.
then was chem.
still okay la. not much to complain about.
MT was
one word: SIAN.
always writing du hou gan. see already will sian la....
finally, the bell rang.
school ended. except for 3e3. haha

-as written by a typical singaporean.

my weekend.

2008-03-24T16:07:00.003+08:00

my weekend was...er, in a way, exciting. well, kinda.
saturday me kimie and ivan went to benjamin's church- riverlife.
his church got alot of ppl sia. and that's only the youths.
its like the whole 9am service in my church. or maybe more.
and i did a very evil thing.
i smsed yiling. okay, that's not evil. haha.
no la, i sms her syaing that i dont wanna go BASIC anymore n i am at my fren's church.
which is true. in a way.
and guess wat? she believed me. she called me n was like,'ARE YOU SERIOUS?!'
so i went,' of cos not la....' and she was like,'eh, dun play these kind of jokes with me leh. later i kena heart attack den u noe.'
okay. i know im evil. but i bo liao nth to do mah...
then the next day during BS she made me answer all her qns. as revenge. haha...
anw, not all la. but more than usual. lol
anyway. i wanna say sorry to her, cos i dont wanna giv her heart attack.
but seriously im really sorry.
sorry for giving u a heart attack. HAHAHA!

aft BS we had outreach planning.
it finished at 230 but tammy decided to be 'holy' and went to the library to do MORE planning.
we left the library at 620.
i reached home at 7 plus.
and i slept...

today was...

2008-03-18T19:02:00.004+08:00

like super sian
morning had 2.4 retest. and i PASSED!
thank god for huiqi, for her encougement.
i managed to pass.
then maths was as usual....BORING
then recess
then chem n physics
then MT.
what an uninteresting day.
then choir.
even more boring.
not that i don't like choir, i do, but its the song we learning now.
and sometimes the instructor.*sshhhh*
this song is a passage from the bible: Psalms 150.
but the song is like in italian and full of semi-quavers and demi-semi quavers.
and full of 'la'-ing, sing until very xin ku, very thirsty.
and we kept sitting and standing, sitting and standing, tiring leh!
no wonder now my legs are like aching.

now im eating maggi mee, which tastes weird. but its not expired.
yi ling says she can cook maggi mee that is superb.
not very convincing leh. haha
she siao siao de, sunday dont come to church, go run 4km.
haha...
anyway, i gtg...
havent finish my homework, and i gotta do my speech before tomorrow.
*sigh*

no comments

2008-03-05T20:21:00.005+08:00

the past two days are like super stressful in some ways la.
today had a-maths test.
on tuesday i studied like hell liddat la.
from when i came home from choir which is around 5 plus until 12 plus
and surprise surprise, i was nearly late for school today.
haha
and tmr got e-maths test. which i know im gonna fail. badly.
so im trying to study now, obviously not working.
otherwise i won't be blogging here rite?
it's very weird la. u can pass a-maths and can fail e-maths.
where's the logic?
and my e-maths teacher is being an idiot again. as usual.
to prove my point:
if you have an error in your test. like the answer is correct but marked wrong, u obviously will go to the teacher to ask her to give you the deserved marks rite?
careen got one qn marked wrong n she wanted to ask teacher for the marks.
she said,' i cant give you the marks because u used correction tape. how would i know if u are cheating or not?'
what kind of stupid answer was that?!
she needs 2 marks to pass n u dont want to give her the 2 marks.
what the hell la!
DAMN IDIOTIC la!
forget it la, im prepared to fail this test.
i dont care if she sends me to NILB.
I WANT TO CHANGE TEACHER!!!!!!!!

im bored. i dont wanna study le.
i feel like sms-ing yi ling leh...
but waste my sms only
haix. nvm la.
i think im gonna study for a little while more, or i change subject.
but today no homework leh.
walau la...

my results

2008-02-27T17:44:00.002+08:00

my results sucks la.
i did very badly
i failed maths, i think im gonna fail the retest as well
i did ok for geography
got b4 for physics
b3 for chemistry
english is quite bad compared to last time
chinese not very sure yet
social studies get back tmr
n a maths...
i just did the TA today
i think im gonna fail as well
i completely forgot how to simplify surds
n not enough time.
i just hope i pass
just keep hoping.
n hoping. and hoping. and hoping.

i survived OBS

2008-02-22T19:08:00.004+08:00

i actually survived OBS...haha
although it was tough, i survived...lols
really, it can drain all ur energy out la
but even if u dont dont have physical strength
u still have mental strength...
which is unlimited.

(i think dis is gonna be a long post)

day one was quite okay la.
we did'nt do much, only got 2 know each oder.
the only thing i rmb was dat we did climbing.
den we had 2 pack backpacks for the next day cos we had 2 go 2 camp 1.
de backpacks were like damn heavy la...
walau...
oh ya...
we learnt how to pitch a tent.
quite difficult cos u had to push the pegs into da ground with ur hands n u r not allowed to use ur feet.
first nite was abit creepy cos its like jungle all over n insects everywhere
n its actually quite cold at nite.

day two was more tiring.
we walked ard 1km with the heavy backpacks.
i was sure my back broke la.
den at camp we had rock climbing.
i managed to get to the 7th panel.
good for me. lols.
i was going to freak out la cos quite high n im afraid of heights.
but must push the boundaries ma...
haha.
den we had kayaking practice kind of thing.
i paired with eileen.
quite difficult to row la.
den when we doing the rescue thingy we drifted damn far away from the shore.
eileen was freaking out a bit la...
thank god we managed to come back.
dat day dinner was catered but not very good la.
the tent dat day was smaller than before.
n it was still freaking cold.

day 3 was more tiring.
cos we were hiking da whole day la
dunno which idiot chose the long way
so we walked with our heavy backpacks from one end of pulau ubin to the other end.
n walked like half the distance back to the campsite.
damn tiring la
when we reached there, there was no shower so cant bathe
n the toilet water was brown de...
damn disgusting la...
den at nite go toilet is damn creepy la.
i think we went in like a super big grp just to go toilet.
got 6 gals 4 guys.
just 2 go to the damn toilet.
but really super freaky.
our tent got even smaller den previous nite
haha

the next day was kayaking.
we kayak frm morning to evening.
around 11hrs altogether
super tired
den still have to pitch tent.
n dunno which idiot took our tent la.
den we found another tent n just pitched it.
too tired to care anymore.
n the tent got even smaller than before.
seriously

last day le!
can go home le...
haha
but i will miss obs.
i will miss the togetherness of columbus
the stupidness of some ppl
the playfulness of others
the things we did
together.
it has left a deep imprint in me
n i will never forget this experience
NEVER.

-t0 serve t0 strive and n0t to yield-

the things in life...

2008-02-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

sometimes the things in life just weirds u out
its always unexpected n unpredictable
u just dunno when ur gonna kena
i dono lah...
suddenly feel dis way...
im very confused
i dono wad to do
really
i dono
very troubled
haix
tmr no sch
im gonna spend tmr thinking about it
maybe i shud make de first move
but im afraid
afraid of wads gonna happen
really
will he reject me?
most probably...yes.
i cant express wad im feeling right now
i want to cry
but even if i do...i'll most probably cry tmr too
den become sad new year instead of happy new year
i will not cry.
why m i always caught up with matters of the heart?
stupidity
really, its just stupidity
sheer stupidity
but i cant control these emotions
not my fault rite?
ahhhhhhh............
*tired*

saturday

2008-02-02T15:24:00.000+08:00

yay! its saturday again!
which means tmr got douniu!!!
haha
but still cnt relax lor...
nex wk i oni gt 2 days of sch but bof days gt test.
how to relax?!
n im like super pissed at my maths teacher
she said our TA was on wk 7
den on thursday she told us dat its gonna be next mon.
like wth la!
still can say,'i dont think my memory is dat bad. i clearly rmb saying it was on wk 6.'
FYI:IT IS DAT BAD!
idiot!
den just now i was doing chemistry
still very sian la...
haix
mon going shopping 4 new yr clothes
haven buy yet...
dis yr like very rush lidat
haha

tired

2008-01-30T17:56:00.000+08:00

walau...im super tired
but icannot sleep, oderwise at nite cant sleep le...
2dae sch was damn sian...esp e maths...
i was lyk sms-ing yi ling all thru the lesson...
den aft sch i went wif ai xuan to tm 4 lunch at LJS den we went window shopping 4 new yr clothes...
i really liked dis top frm MANGO...
but it was very ex...
maybe i'll try 2 persuade my mum 2 buy 4 me...
haha...
tired....

SKITTLES!

2008-01-27T19:39:00.000+08:00

im suddenly high on skittles...dono why
tammy lor...bring skittles for service
den nv even hear wad pastor talking bout
haha...nvm lah...not intrested anyway
just now we had bible study in one BIG grp
but the sec 1s still nt concentrating...
forever sms-ing or playing wif their fones
i dono but they seem lost in their own world
they dont socialise with the rest of us
we try to talk to them but they sometimes ignore us.
very irritating. haix
so just now tammy, kelly, jezreel n i talked to yi ling n carling bout dis problem
im glad dat we can be so open to them
at least we tried to solve the problem.
if u just do nth is gonna get worse rite?
i hope next wk there will b improvement
i really dont want our bible study to 'break' in a way
some girls r still shy, i can understand.
some feel dat they r not used to us...
some r just plain anti social.
dono lah...hope next wk wld b better...
really, i do...

interesting conversation between S.H.E

2008-01-25T19:48:00.000+08:00

SHE was sitting infront of the computer seeing forum posts.

hebe: eh, ur fans say mi leh.
ella: kaoz. always like that. really... lol.
selina: neh neh neh bu bu~ my fans zui guai! always never fight! hehe!
ella: u no fans mah! lol~
hebe: ya lor!
selina: humph!
ella: i think i must go online and scold them la~
hebe: dun nid la! they wan how think jiu how think lo...
selina: abit getting out of control hor..
hebe: ya... past yrs... our fans all very guai.. now.. haiz..
ella: YA! my fans shoot u, ur fans shoot me!
hebe: ah~watever la. they wan say wat jiu sae what ba. dont wan to bother. they dont understand us aniway.
ella: haiz...
selina: relax guys...

i found this on the forums...very interesting...
(all this is completely fiction n untrue. no offence to anyone)

super duper bubble gum

2008-01-25T18:47:00.000+08:00

(F.Y.I-the title has nth do do with wad im gonna say...)
its just a new warm up teacher taught us...very cute=]

today is friday. friday sux. stupid school!
dat mr ng making us bring all our books home nia...walau
idiot!
lyk we dont study liddat. we got okay! just dat unessasary books no nid bring home ba...social studies 4 eg. which idiot actually goes home to study SS?!

den jus now aft choir jia hui, joy n me went to kfc for lunch/dinner. suay suay mr ng saw us crossing the road without waiting 4 traffic light. im lyk wth? liddat oso wan 2 scold. idiotic...

ooh...s.h.e de new song come out le!!! yay!!!
damn cute lorh...
its the theme song 4 CJ7...
very nice!!!!!
i sure watch de!
dou niu ending le...so sad...
left 4 more eps...
i hope dat xiao jie will be wif ruo he...
den zi cong can be with qian na...

suddenly feel lyk playing neopets...
lolx
*meep* *meep*

school started 20 days ago

2008-01-22T19:53:00.000+08:00

yes...school started 20 days ago
i cant stand sec 3....i wanna go back to sec2!!!
the first few days of school were damn quiet
den we started getting used our class n now....
well, it's better..heh

but i still not getting used to the lessons
a maths for instance...
understand but dunno how to do
so on sunday must go ask yi ling
den last sunday i kena sabo by yi ling
den e maths oso
my teacher sux!
seriously, i cant understand wat she saying n she contradicts herself.
thank god for mdm seah...
she so kindly provided notes 4 us...
i so prefer her teaching anytime....
can trade teachers anot ah? lol

im currently watching dou niu yao bu yao
super nice!!!
by hebe(dats y worth watching...)
mike he(damn shuai!)
li wei(emm...dono hw to descibe..)
i think im gonna watch e zuo ju 2
in eng its they kissed again...emm wad kind of tiltle is dat?
den still gt coffee prince!!
n channel u showing gong zhu xiao mei...
i wanna watch again!!!
haha

gt a maths to do...sian...
haix...
gd nites ppl...

sadness & scaredness

2007-08-24T19:26:00.000+08:00

i think im about 2 cry...
im scared bout wad will happen tmr
why does'nt he understand...
has he ever considered my feelings?
my love for him will be 4eva...
does he understand?
maybe what im anticipating tmr will come true
or it will not...im hoping not
i still love euu, i noe u feel de same...
its just a misunderstanding...
its not my fault...its his.
i hope u read dis...maybe u will understand
haix..im becoming emo...
4get it, im not gonna post le...
gd niites.

2007-07-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

i long time nv post le...i know...i was lazy too...
i was playing with the HTML n dat messed up the whole thing
moral of the story is 2 not play wid HTML unless ur really...
i mean REALLY REALLY gud at it...u'll save urself frm alot of trouble...
trust me...

the past few days were quite busy, i had NAPFA on tues...
i fell n hurt my knee, so now im in de same condition as jennifer
except dat mine nt so serious only...
i gt 2 As, 2 Es and 1 fail(sit n reach)...
im hoping my 2.4 wud b gud but i dun think i can run...
oh well

my day was boring 2dae...VERY BORING!!!
i had nothing 2 do at home so i was stuck 2 the com almost de whole day
i was laming around wid farzana on MSN...
dat was about the most 'interesting' thing dat happened...

nex week gt tons of tests..
n i still not studying...maybe i'll do maths
or science...
im so not going 2 bother wif english or lit
english just puts me off lately n lit is open bk
there's not much of a point in studying dose 2 subs rite?
chinese gt tuition so still ok...

i think i'll do science...more fun...
den maths, den i'll study the TV...

**do my friends test!(its with my links) thnx!**

2007-07-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

today was rather unexciting, nothing much happened
except dat 'he' called me aft sch 2 ask how i was
he said he didnt c me at church n thot i was sick
so sweet...dunno y im so crazy over him...

2dae my new instructor came...
she not strict de lorh...still say she very strict
den also nv test voice, teacher fake fake 1...
fri no CCA!!! so happy!!!
but i so prefer mr ong...
mayb cos since last yr he was my instructor
the day he left i cried lyk hell lor
at i-hub i was crying abit but go home i hid in my room n cried

haven do science yet sia...
i dun understand it, sec 3 work leh...
n tmr got home ed practical...
i dun lyk wednesdays
must wear tie, but at least cn go home early...

[6 days to 160707]

2007-07-08T17:47:00.000+08:00

i know i long tym nv post le...cos i lazy.
'sum ppl' have been bugging me 2 update...

today nothing interestin happen...
i stayed @ home dhe whole day n watched TV
didn't go church cos i didn't feel lyk going
[i know lar, very bad...]

tmr gt sch, 'she' will confirm ask bout de project 1
sum ppl must learn how 2 take it easy...
wad 4 u stress urself up just 2 please ur parents...
gettin gd grades IS impt but no nid 2 study 24/7 wad...

tues gt new instructor coming
mr chew wan us individually sing 4 her
n i still dunno wad 2 sing
supposed 2 be 'ur favourite song'
but i lyk so many songs sia...

[8 days to 160707]

2007-06-14T20:23:00.000+08:00

i noe dat i havent updated 4 a long tym, i've got reasons...
1) can't be bothered
2) dono wad 2 rite about
3) everytym i want 2 rite sure become preoccupied wif sumthing else
4) i gt hmwk 2 do (nt lyk farzana almost everyday go out...)

i dont belief im saying dis but I MISS SCHOOL!!!
seriously lar, at home got nothin 2 do de
and oni can go out 2 times a wk...saded

dat dae i went 4 confident communicator[CC]
quite fun but i dun think i became confident...haha
the games all boring 1...most of it play b4 le
der 'That's Right Expert' was very fun
and the 'King and Servant' oso very fun
der food was terrible tho, worse the trainers ate mac...
in front of us!
overall still ok lar...

i might post tmr...c first la

2007-05-28T16:40:00.000+08:00

on sat was meet parent session. it was OK lah, except dat ms tan saed the things all contridicting 1...first she said dat my lvl pos. n class pos. dropped frm last yr. den jus aft dat she go n say 'but she did well overall'. so contridicting 1 lor...i mean if she say dat my pos. dropped she cud haf said sumthin lyk mus work harder or wad rite? sum ppl de 'engrish' is jus terrible! haha...

den for comments she wrote:'a slow bt consistent lrner, krystal mus learn 2 take part in more class n sch activities.'[sumthing lyk dat lar]
i MUST empasise on de slow part. i m NOT slow. if i am slow, den eunice would b quite fast onli. not even superspeed lor...lol. den farzana de comment was realli out of dis world. ms tan wrote sumthing bout 'farzana is a gentle and caring person'. AS IF! she is nt gentle n caring, but neither is she rough n cold-blooded. she's kinda in between...haha...

i most probably wont make it to 3e3 for de trial run. i think i'll get in 3e4. my lvl pos. is onli 53. it dropped alot. last yr was 38 or 39(cant rmb)...haix...must work harder!!!

2007-05-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

aft tmr is holidaes!!! yay! 2dae we had a briefing on subject combination...that cher tok until i dunno wad he toking but i get dhe idea...actually dis is a trial run meaning dat we choose our classes accordin 2 mid yr marks. the real thing is of cos EOY larh...dey wan us 2 'prepare' so dat we noe whr we stand n wad 2 do at the real thing all dat lorh...so its lyk if u wan get into a realli gd class or subs dat u lyk n euu dun get in for dhe trial, ta least u can improve 4 EOY. its quite a gd idea actualli except dat nw ppl all getting stressed up again..haha...i think im gonna choose 3e3 den 3e4 den dhe last choice i think 3e1 or anoder class.

tmr gt big breakfast which i going 2 b a DISASTER! confirm 1. dat dae we 'discussed' the menu all dat and the result? our class bcame racist. the malays were against teh chinese all dat...n dat ms tan didnt do anythin bout it! she actually oni listen 2 the malays side of the story n did nt ask our opinion.dey were going to collect $1.50 class fund of lyk curry puff n samosa only! nt dat i wont giv money bt $1.50x39 is lyk wad? $58.50! i mean y do u need 58 bucks 2 buy dose 2 items?! last yr i was tresurer n i oni had a $10 budget 2 buy food, drinks, cups, plates etc. dis is unfair, or in others words BIAS! most ppl r bringing their own food frm mac. so..lyk i said DISASTER!

Exam Results

2007-05-17T16:48:00.000+08:00

2dae we got back our results. i gt A for sci maths n geog but my language grades dropped tremendously...eng n chinese i gt B3 but lit i oni gt 57/100 which is C5 if im nt wrong... so sad...actually i was surprised at my geog n chinese marks. den 4 sci, our marks was nt good but % passes more den 2e1! haha...i oni jus touched A2 wif 70.5 marks...highest in class was...surprise surprise...eunice. she all the subs gt highest except 4 chinese. my mum is pleased wif my results(i think)...

2007-05-10T19:15:00.000+08:00

1 more dae left!!! at around 10am tmr, no more stress!!! yay! ok, im startin 2 go crazy now...2dae de science paper was ok lah but i lost 5 marks liao...i dun think will get A, most prob a B...2moro is maths paper 2, confirm veri difficult de lorh...i oso cant wait 4 tuesdae 2 come! mon n tues no sch!

ltr gt lifeline. im not watching. cos gt joakim. im anti-joakim. anti-joakimness rawks. no offence zana, sry! cud'nt help it. haha!

2dae ms tan was so idiotic. jus cos mrs oh sae mus nt make noise aft exam, she dunt let us go home lorh. stupid sia! den oso cos asraff n siraj dey keep talking during exam. not lyk talking, chattin kinda thin but when 1 of dem ask sumthin de others will start spoutin rubbish n make de whole class laff. so aft exam ms tan let us go outside the class row by row. when every 1 come out den let us walk down 'in an orderly manner'. she think we pri 1 ah?! so irritating! i hope tmr is the chinese cher collect the papers at de end. i cant stand ms tan! anti-ms tan! haha!

2007-05-09T16:20:00.000+08:00

2 more daes n mi misery will end!! 2dae paper was quite easy, i actually maganed 2 do at least half of dhe tian xie han zi...den geography i wasted alot time by think of the ans 2 1 qn so i had 2 rush the last structured qn out. den the boys kept joking when ms tan was invigilating...haha...ms tan set dhe geog paper until beri easy lorh...'sumbody' confirm get 100 marks 1...i miss my mindchamps frenz (especially priscilla) n charmaine...mayb we shud hav a class gathering. S4L7015 rawks 4eva!!!

exams...

2007-05-08T19:18:00.000+08:00

2dae we had maths n lit paper. i thot dat the maths was quite easy but im worried dat paper 2 would be difficult. mr chew set dhe paper alwaes difficult 1! dat tym TA oso liddat...den all the classes he teach get high marks lor...unfair! lit paper was abit tough...most of der qns were 4 or 5 marks n needed alot of thinking. im jus hoping dat i do well...oderwise my chances of a new hp will drop to 0%. i hate exams...tmr is geog n chinese...anoder subjec im afraid of...my chinese has alwaes been bad...i might have flunked paper 1. geog is not sho bad lar...i understand the concepts...jus afraid that i would 4get them all! but since ms tan set the paper it sld b easy...i hope. mrs oh sae aft MYE mus choose subjec comb n im gettin stressed out...i dun think i'll make the cut 4 pure sci nex yr, my class is second bottom n alredi gt genious...gt 2 study hard!!! sian...oh well...